Supernatural: No Rest For The Wicked
Yes, Sometimes Bon Jovi Rocks
by Sylvia Bond
Supernatural Season 3 – Episode 16
“No Rest for the Wicked”
“We don’t always get what we want,” says Dean in this episode, bloody but unbowed, to which I want to add, yes, but sometimes we get what we’ve been desperately hoping for. Although, yeah, it sounds a little weird to be hoping to see Dean’s final day on earth before the hellhounds get him and all the suffering that goes with that. I mean, what kind of whack job would want to see that kind of angst and suffering? A fan, that’s who. A True Fan, who has been on the road with the Winchesters long enough, and who knows that THIS is the day, the day of all days. Not a good day, no, but an important one.
I’m just glad that Show, in spite of the writer’s strike, was able to tell this particular story, because after all the buildup of this season, it would have been a tremendous letdown if they had not. And a gyp besides, although watching it, I was of two minds. In the first mind, I’m Little Orphan Annie, tugging on the coat sleeves of the man in charge, in this case, Uncle Kripke, going, “Dean’s going to be okay, isn’t he? You’re not gonna hurt him real bad, are you? Me and Sandy are AWFUL worried about him.” In the second mind, I’m a rather more like crack whore who isn’t much concerned with anything except where her next hit is coming, and she’s rather keen on watching all the suffering that she’s sure Show is going to dish out. It is with these two faces that I watched this episode, one of me cringing and crying, the other smiling with glee.
The basic story is, as I said, Dean’s last day on earth. We don’t get this day moment-by-moment, which would have been rather cool, but we get huge chunks of it, enough to take us along for the rather bumpy and angsty ride. Because of course, as you might have guessed, Sam is determined to keep trying till the midnight hour, and Dean is determined that nothing shall keep him from his appointed rounds. Till the end, Dean stands firm and never wavers, never backs down, those raspberry lips firm and his eyes (crystal green always, due to some marvelous lighting by my boys in the lighting department) always on the, er, prize. I love him for that.
But first, a new twist: Dean has a nightmare where hellhounds are chasing him. Usually we get to see Sammy having nightmares, so being inside Dean’s brain was a treat. And I knew it was a dream because of the weird camera angles and washed-out, green-tinted colors. Actually it was more of a nightmare, and I thought it was interesting that Dean would actually have a chasing dream like that. (I can totally relate because for years I used to have dreams that Nazis were chasing me.) Chasing dreams are the scariest thing because you can never run fast enough or far enough, because however slow the Nazis (or hellhounds) shamble, they always manage to catch up to you. Luckily Dean wakes, the flicker of his eyelashes making him particularly sweet and vulnerable. By the woodcut print we can tell he was reading about hellhounds before he fell asleep. That’ll teach him, you think? Alas, no. But the main point here is that the dream shows Dean scared enough to run, which given his development as heroic figure adds wonderful layers – if he was never scared he would have been a far less interesting and dynamic character.
With Sam there as he wakes up, Dean makes jokes about taking in the donkey show in Tijuana, all the while Sam is making promises by candlelight, promises of fealty and devotion. It’s rather like getting Dean out of his deal has become the Holy Grail for Sam, and he is confident of his success. (Though he seems rather dubious about the donkey show, were he able to save Dean, I’m sure he’d be willing to go along with party plans a little racier and out there than he’s used to. Heck, maybe he’ll even consent to watching The Wizard of Oz synced up to Pink Floyd’s Dark Side of the Moon!) It is in this scene also that Dean has that hallucination that is apparent only to those who are close to the end of their contract. I particularly liked the way Dean’s face went from smiling to stillness as he watches because I’m sure it isn’t every day that his brother has the face of one of hell’s minions. (The crack whore loved it; the Orphan was freaked and knew it would only get worse from here.)
In the next scene, we got ourselves a Class A-1 dither to beat all dithers, one that the boys have had before lots of times, but this time, because the clock is ticking towards the darkest hour, it has extra punch. Bobby has sussed out Lilith’s location, Sam has all kinds of ideas about what they can do, and Dean shoots them all down, wisely, I thought, because the intel comes from Bella, who, Dean has FINALLY learned lies as easily as breathing. (The “Holster it up, Sam,” line from Dean was totally apt, because Sam has moved from being a paladin to acting like a gunslinger just moments before High Noon. Somebody’s got to control that boy!) There’s nothing as satisfying as a scene where the two brothers argue. I may have said this before, but it is only when there is utter trust can two people rant and rail at each other the way these two boys do. Their voices are pitched, there’s jagged edges to everything they say, both are desperate, and then Dean brings a halt to it with a heartfelt, “Just no.” Then he goes and sits in the flickering light of some beeswax candles, setting aglow his skin and my poor fangirl’s heart to beating. He’s tired, he’s weary, and in spite of that, still beautiful.
I’m particularly fond of the scene where Sam summons Ruby. It had shades of John Winchester all over it – the only thing missing was the part where Sam slices open his own wrist to add blood to the ceremony. (Along with the grunt of pain, the five o’clock shadow, and that whisky voice…ooooooo, sexy!) Anyway, along comes Ruby posing and yakking, blah, blah, blah. I think she’s saying something about what Sam could do to save the day, his dormant powers, etc., and then there’s an argument over the knife. And then in walks Dean, in big brother mode. (Which totally saves the scene, because even if Ruby is only on the screen for five minutes, it’s already fifteen minutes too long.)
Then there’s a fight with loads of terrifically good whumpage that the crack whore liked especially well. When Dean punched Ruby, I stood up and CHEERED, and I think I pulled something in my shoulder punching the air because now it hurts like hell! It might even require physical therapy, but it was worth it, just to see Dean come down HARD on a character that has been lying and conniving ever since the day she was created. What was even better was the feeling that Dean, at last, was expressing some of his frustration over the fact that Ruby had been lying to Sam because Dean cannot condone, anything that hurts Sam or, in this case, gives him false hope.
And guess what? Dean’s already figured out what Sam was going to do, so he’s able to trap Ruby with a devil’s trap he painted on the ceiling ages ago. The look he gives Sam is pure older brother, not quite so much “I told you so,” but more “You should have listened to me, idiot.” Older brothers (and sisters) for all they are so damn bossy, don’t tend to forget that lessons are better absorbed and acknowledged if they’re not delivered with sarcasm. (Actually that only happens when they’re older, but you see what I mean.)
As the boys stagger up the stairs with the magic knife, they leave her in the basement, and I realize that I’ve actually gotten in Ruby exactly what I asked for. She’s not a Good Demon, she’s more nebulous than that. She has ambition, and she’s twisted everything enough to so that the boys don’t know when to trust her and when to not. And each time they face her, it is with stamina and brave hearts and their eyes wide open to the danger. (Yeah, I know, be careful what you ask for, yadda, yadda, yadda.)
Once upstairs, Sam and Dean holster up. The crack whore is the first to notice that if there was any first aid applied, it was not filmed; thusly, she feels gypped. However, the is placated by the fact that while the boys talk, their heart-to-heart is intensified by the sad piano cords that I’ve come to associate with Dean in a dark and pensive mood. The whole of the scene is beautifully paced; there are, as well, close-ups of eyes, and mouths, and the flush of Sam’s skin as he listens to his brother and works to keep from coming apart at the seams.
Wonderful things are said during this conversation, bringing many issues into a condensed emo mess. Sam says that he’s not afraid of what he might have to become to save Dean. (As to exactly what Sam might become is an issue that fangirls have been debating for ages.) Dean makes the anti-martyr speech, using the sexual metaphor of “spreading it for these demons” to tell Sam what they should NOT be doing. Then Dean talks about not making the same mistakes, and as he launches into his speech about stopping the cycle of sacrifice, which makes total sense, he tells Sam, “You’re my weak spot.” Now this has been said and acknowledged before, but with the sad piano and the time crunch and the glitter in Dean’s eyes, it’s rather more emo than the crack whore likes. The Orphan enjoyed it just fine because no one was bleeding or anything gory and violent like that. Besides, who doesn’t like it when the angst and the love oozes out of every Winchester pore like this, huh? Angst, damnit, angst! It’s what we signed up for!
It’s at this point (a whopping almost sixteen minutes!) that the camera takes us to New Harmony and away from the boys. I’m thrilled, frankly, that we got so much boy-togetherness before Show remembered that there should be a MOW included somewhere. In this case, we get Lilith on shore leave in a happy suburb, where she gets to play at being the naughty little girl, and where every day is her birthday. The setup reminded me of the one storyline in Twilight Zone, The Movie, where Kathleen Quinlan’s character rescues a little boy from his dangerous and harmful fantasy life. So, not terribly original, but creepy enough, just the same. Then it’s back to the boys! Once Bobby is able to stop the boys from racing off (and how long has it been since you saw a carburetor cap like that, I ask you?) and redefine the meaning of family, the boys are on the road, driving through the darkness, in the Impala.
The scene where Dean gets Sammy singing was priceless. I got the feeling that when Dean’s alone in the car, he sings rather a lot. I can see him rolling all the windows down, cranking the radio all the way up, and singing at the top of his beautiful, musically talented lungs. So, to cheer Sam up, because that’s what big brothers do, he starts off rather like Sister Maria does with the Von Trapp Family Singers: he encourages by demonstration and then brings Sam into the fun. (The whole “Bon Jovi rocks…sometimes,” line is sure to become a classic.) Sam, alas, can kill vampire men much better than he can sing, but his enthusiasm and joy make that okay. Plus, it was one of those Winchester moments you wish you could lock in a golden box forever, because in between the woe and strife and the never-ending angst, there are these bits of good times, stops for coffee and pie, an excellent sunset as they drive across the flat highways of the plains, or even the quiet joy of stretching out on a real bed after sleeping in the car for three days – because the Winchester’s lives are not all on the screen, you know. Lots of it is off screen, and it’s tidbits like these that give me the flavor of that.
But then, Dean stops singing and the camera zooms in on his face. For one second, you get to see it, the real fear. His skin is as white as paper and his eyes have this glazed look like you might have if you were tied to the tracks and a freight train with no breaks was coming. To me, he looks like he’s about to puke, and I, in sympathy felt like puking with him. Alas, this interesting sight is interrupted by a cop car’s siren, and the boys are soon pulled over for, of all things, a broken taillight. Dean is (a little inexplicably) able to “pierce the veil” and see that the cop is a demon in disguise, and so kills him. What’s funny here is as the boys and Bobby hide the cop car in the woods, we see the car’s number on the top. It’s nice to know that the eternal question of “Car 54, where are you?” can now be answered. (It was buried in the woods by the Winchester boys!)
When the boys arrive in the happy suburb (and I’m sure there’s some sort of metaphor going here about how evil hides behind smiling faces and manicured lawns or something), Dean is able to spot all the demons, and there is a tidy little dither that follows. Sam wants to “ninja in,” while Dean counsels caution. Oddly, it is Sam who wins out by appealing to Dean’s heroic side, by telling him that if they get Lilith, they save everybody. I liked the way the dialog developed here moving the plot forward and logically getting Dean to agree to the mayhem that’s about to ensue. And boy does it ensue!
The mayhem during the battle scene is made up of pure Winchester scream-and-leap tactics: Bobby sanctifies the water supply and Sam and Dean move in, taking the demons completely unawares. Two things appealed to the crack whore here. One was the bit where Dean holds the demon close for Sam’s killing blow, covering his mouth while he glows and dies. I mean, what would it take, how hardened to this would you have to be to do it without flinching? Apparently, Dean’s been refined in the hottest crucible; he doesn’t hesitate, not for one second. The second bit was where Sam wiped the blood from the knife on the sleeve of his jacket. Gone are the days when he protested the taking of the lives of the human hosts. Now, if there’s a demon, he’ll kill it, end of story. (Besides which, his Samhair was in a delightful tumble at this point, and he was breathing hard, his body trembling head to foot as if he was so wound up, he couldn’t come back down. The crack whore liked all of this, but the Orphan was saddened by the fact that the boys have had to become so dark in order to beat back the darkness.)
Enter Ruby, and I’d like to say enough of her already, but since she’s threatening Dean, I’m treated to the sight of Sam coming up behind her in full-power mode. He says, “Take it easy,” in that way that indicates that if she doesn’t, it’s all over for her in two-seconds or less and hang the consequences. Plus, there was that interesting little moment, if you watch carefully, where Ruby actually backs away from Sam, as if she were truly afraid of him and not just being cautious about the magic knife. Their squabble is interrupted by more oncoming demons and the trio does what people do when thrown together in a foxhole: they start working as a team. While this makes sense psychologically, it was disheartening to see Dean forget all his mighty protestations about her reliability and so forth. But as long as he doesn’t take his beautiful eyes off her, I’ll be satisfied.
As Bobby’s holy sprinkler system keeps the demons at bay, the oddly formed trio enters the happy house and goes looking for trouble, which they find, natch, by splitting up. (Will they EVER learn?) Dean carts scared husband guy down to the basement while Ruby and Sam trot upstairs. Then all of a sudden, Sam is on his own. He is perfectly wide-eyed and terrified, which I like because I think that once Sam loses that last bit of fear, that’s when we’ll loose Sam to the darkness. And I don’t know about you, but as he’s going down the hall, the Orphan was hiding her eyes and the crack whore was on the edge of her seat. It’s funny to be so divided like this, but I had this nasty feeling that it was going to get uglier before it got nicer, and that Sammy boy was going to take me there.
And he does this by entering the naughty little girl’s room, tiptoeing up on the pink canopy bed, his shoulder to the fore thus properly keeping his profile narrow, twisting that knife in his hands like he’s ready to use it. The crack whore approves of the way Sam silently (and with those graceful long fingers of his) pulls back the curtains; she wants bloodshed and she wants it now. As the mother mouths, “Do it!” over and over, the crack whore is pretty sure she’s going to get her way. But the Orphan sees what Sam sees: a sweet and sleeping little girl. How can Sam possibly bring himself to kill such an innocent thing, even if the body contains the demon Lilith? The sad part is, he’s ready, he’s going to do it, he had the knife up and his teeth were bared and everything. The fact that Dean stops him in the nick of time is not as important as the fact that Sam was, at that moment, willing to do the most horrible thing to save Dean. And even though he never had to do it, it makes you wonder how far he will be willing and how far he will eventually go.
Then, as it gets closer to midnight, the brothers argue. There are raised voices and yummy brotherly clutching, and Dean says that it’s all his fault, taking the blame in a way that’s so typically Dean. Then he tells Sam good bye in that Deanish way of his, not by saying, “goodbye” or “I love you,” but by telling Sam what his duties and obligations will be once Dean is gone: keep fighting, look after Dean’s wheels, and remember what The Dad and Dean taught him. (Because duty and obligation are how Dean organizes his world, you see.) It is during this simple dialog that Show winds up the angst meter so hard and so fast that the Orphan wants to go home, but sadly she can’t because being homeless is kind of the definition of being an orphan. I give her a poke with my elbow and tell her to pay attention, because this is what Show does best: a scene with two brothers at odds, each ready to die for the other, and a no-win scenario during which the ultimate sacrifice will have to be made. (Plus, Sam and Dean are so damn beautiful here, it creates the most horrible of dilemmas: should I lust after them or cry for their fate?)
The crack whore just wants to see what Show will do with the whole hellhound concept. As the clock strikes midnight, she is quickly satisfied as the hellhounds approach. Show wisely does not show us the hellhounds, but instead we got some hellhound-cam, and the horror on Dean and Sam’s faces as THE moment arrives – midnight on Dean’s last day.
It is Dean who first hears the growls and snarls that no one else can hear, and then he takes off running, and for some reason my heart went out to him more than if he had stood his ground. Dean is not Superman (or Batman, for that matter), he is made of flesh and bone, he is only human. So he runs, which is exactly what I would do. He runs to give himself just one minute more, to spread the goofer dust and stand his ground, maybe for Sam, maybe for himself.
But then, Dean realizes that Lilith has possessed Ruby, so instead of fending off evil with the goofer dust, they’ve locked it in the room with them. Whumpage ensues, with Sam against the wall and Dean, in an oddly provocative pose, on a table. (He really shouldn’t do…THAT…with his thighs. I don’t think either the Orphan or the crack whore can take it. I know I can’t.) Lilith is as mad as hell and she wants Sam’s giant head on a pike; her kiss repulses him, but he submits thinking that he can trade himself up for Dean. Alas no, and, cruelly, she lets the hellhounds in to take Dean.
When they come, it is worse than I had imagined, but I think that only right, considering the buildup this particular scene has had. Flesh is rent by invisible claws, blow spurts and flows, and then there is the screaming. Yeah, I’m all about whumpage for Dean, I like to watch him struggle and be brave. But this, this did me in, as the Orphan and the crack whore came together inside me in horror. I had my hands over my mouth, trying not to shriek out loud, because for some reason, just then, it all came together and felt so REAL, I was as raw as the Velveteen rabbit when all his fur has worn off. But with Sam screaming, his voice sounding jagged and ripped, I couldn’t look away, not even for a minute.
Sam’s begging Lilith to stop it, and then it gets surreal: Lilith pops out this white light, and all of a sudden, everything goes still, you know, the way it has after the fireworks have stopped for the night. Sam is able to get up, and oddly, Lilith backs up from him. Like she’s afraid of him, and I’m like when did this happen? It goes back to the kiss, I think, when she kissed him, I think that it tipped Sam over into the dark. Not that he’s fully darkside, but enough so that he can put a stop to the madness.
But why doesn’t she just kill Sam, when she’s been sending demons after him for that very reason? I think this can be explained by what I like to call the The Ruby Slipper Conundrum. In the movie version of The Wizard of Oz (and maybe the book version, too, I forget), the WW of the W tries to take the slippers that used to belong to her sister, the WW of the E, off Dorothy’s feet but she can’t. Later, she has her flying monkeys sweep Dorothy up and cart her to the WW of the W’s castle. Whereupon the WW of the W gives Dorothy a whole hour to think it over. And Dorothy would have handed over the slippers, if a certain group of motley heros hadn’t marched in there and saved her.
So what stayed the WW of the W’s hand? Well, the truth is, as long as the slippers are on Dorothy’s feet, the witch can neither have the slippers nor hurt Dorothy. I think the same applies here. Lilith can’t kill Sam herself, which is why she keeps sending Show’s version of flying monkeys after him. But Sam can best the flying monkeys, and in the end, didn’t all Dorothy have to do is click her damn heels together three times and she was where she wanted to be? Likewise, I think all Sam has to do is want it hard enough and the power will be his. And it seems like it is, because after Lilith flares her white light at him, he’s able to stand up like nothing happened, AND she backs away from him in fear. When he attacks her with the magic knife, the familiar black smoke shoots out of her mouth and she collapses to the floor. (Is she dead? Is Ruby dead at last? Oh, I HOPE so!) So I’m thinking that something happened to Sam that not even he is aware of.
In spite of any of this, it’s too late, Dean is on the floor, as still as a corpse should be whose soul has been dragged into hell. Sam bends down and with tears dripping from his face, cradles Dean’s body in his arms in less than a heartbeat. He’s a mess just the way I like him, but again, the pain is far too real, and I wanted to be a stuffed bunny again, immune to the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune. Watching Sam weep this time is just about this side of too much, and I know for a fact I wasn’t the only fangirl that night who simply went into a state of shock at the thought that Dean had actually died.
The last camera angle goes in real close, right up to the surface of Dean’s beautiful green eye, where we see, at last, Dean in hell. He’s all alone, and with a blood-filled mouth and hooks digging into his flesh to hold him in place, he screams for Sam. Over and over and over. And then the screen goes blank. It’s a cliffhanger, and a painful one. Dean is dead, he’s gone to the pit, and there was nothing Sam could do to save him.
Or was there? And is there?
I don’t want to speculate because it’s not in my nature, besides it’ll mess up the purity of the moment – so beautifully filmed that the emotions come out of the screen like punches, one after the other. But something happened here, something Show left purposefully ambiguous as to keep us on tenterhooks until new episodes start arriving. Meanwhile, the questions start piling up: What is hell? Did Dean go there? And if not, where is he?
I think he’s not in hell, and it’s not just me knowing with my TV trained brain that one of the stars of Show will be back next season, it’s the way it was done. Now, I don’t know about you, but my version of hell comes from Disney. It’s full of orange and red flames and those little imps who poke at the damned with tiny black pitchforks. Even less cartoonish versions of hell usually include lakes of orange and red fire, smoking sulphur and brimstone, devils and demons, the screams of the souls of the damned, and everyone is naked. Besides, Kripke said in a variety of ways that he didn’t want to show hell because the budget could never do it justice and the implication I got was that Dean wasn’t actually going to go there.
Besides, this vision of hell contains none of these things I just talked about, plus, as you know if you’ve seen the ep, Dean’s got clothes on. And as soon as I got over feeling cheated about this, I realized that the color scheme was similar to Dean’s earlier nightmares. I’m thinking that Dean is not really in hell, but trapped in his own psyche, and only Sam can get him out.
We do make our own hell, you know. For me, it’s the guy from Accounting who always wants to tell me, down to the last detail, about the crabgrass he spent all week eradicating from his lawn. (Like, who cares already!) For Dean, hell is anywhere where there is no Sam, which is not something any fangirl needed Show to point out. But whether it’s all in Dean’s head (and the cross-girders pattern was a little reminiscent of brain synapses), or whether he is really in the pit, as the episodes ends, the Orphan is in tears, a huddled mess on one end of the couch. The crack whore, who has just finished her last dime bag, realizes suddenly that there isn’t going to be anymore crack until September begins to weep.
Ever see a crack whore cry? It’s not a pretty sight. And all of us, the crack whore, the Orphan, and me, are a mess because we have to wait to find out what really happened (and what will happen), until Season 4 (YEAH!) starts. But what Show doesn’t realize is that there’ll be a lot of us fangirls sitting in corners rocking, filled with useless crack yearnings that only Show can satisfy. And let me say this before I go on: I fell in love with Dean all over again. Sam, you know, big, tall, gorgeous, emo Sam, complete with Samhair, yeah, he was coming in fast on the rail on the inside, the dark horse for ages now, and was about to take over. Oh, but Dean, Dean, Dean, he really slayed me this time around. Only Dean can say so much without saying anything at all; only Dean can cry without crying. I am a rock solid Deangirl once again. Sorry, Sammy, better luck next season.
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Sylvia Bond is a ten-year technical writing veteran with too many degrees under her belt to count. She lives in Colorado, but does not ski, preferring instead to spend her money and time at the annual Great American Beer Festival, taking road trips across the United States, and reading historical fiction from the comfort of her fluffy green arm chair. She has been involved in fandom since 1993 and been writing fanfic since approximately 1993. What she finds most amazing about fandom (besides the open heartedness of fans and the sheer amount of creativity) is how visible fandom has become. “In my day,” she says, “we had to hide behind P.O. boxes to get fanfic. But nowadays, people wear t-shirts that shout their affiliation and share their shiny toys on the internet.” It’s a wonderful world.
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Nice review but a couple of things. I don’t think the kiss Lilith gave Sam had anything to do with anything really besides disgusting Sam. I think it was seeing his brother tore apart in front of him that triggered something inside like in Nightmare when he had the vision of Max shooting Dean. Also I really hope that Dean isn’t just “trapped in his mind” or something I think that would be a total cop out. Besides really how can he not be dead after what the hellhounds did to his body?
Dear Scarlette,
You know, there’s no telling what it all means. I’m pretty spoiler free myself, so my speculations are just that, speculations, and you are free to speculate otherwise. I do think something happened to Sam, either the kiss or seeing Dean ripped to shreds, that triggered some powers inside of him. I think, yeah, he was able to stop the process from happening and that Dean is not in hell. But that’s just me.
I can understand why you think that if he’s not in hell, that’s a copout, but I’m satisfied with it because it means that Sam has had to go a little darkside to save his brother. Yeah, we would like to see Sam stride into hell and take Dean out again, but I think showing real hell would take some of the mystery out of it. After all, hell has been the biggest “monster behind the door” for this whole season. If we show it, we loose that marvelous scary tension.
Best Regards,
Sylvia
So Deans hero status is sealed forever in concrete while Sam,s pinned to a wall , please Mr Krike tell me what exactly are you doing with Sam because I dont know?
Aside from that enjoyed your review and I actually loved this episode until the lets pin Sam to the wall again game…
Dear Sylvia
I am back in my corner again, rocking back and forth. It is the same place I inhabited after the show ended last Thursday. Kripke killed Dean! He killed OUR beautiful DEAN!!!!!!!!!!
I was so in shock, after last week’s episode, that it took a full thirty minutes for the full brevity of what I just witnessed on my television screen to truly sink in. I cried….full body shuddering crying.
I felt like someone from my family had just died and it hit me hard. What a devastating blow it was! I am honestly still numb and in shock and your review just transported me back to that awful place again. I am glad I am not alone. I am glad I can share my grief with you because as a fan girl you understand the pain and the love and the passion I feel for this show.
I like your analogy about the crack whore. Seriously, I am so addicted to this show and it all makes perfect sense when you put our addiction in that context.
Jared and Jim were all kinds of awesome. Bobby’s comment ‘Family don’t end with blood, boy’ made me stand up and cheer. Bobby is a surrogate father to these boys and I know he would lay down his life for them. With JDM gone, I am so glad he has always been there for them. They are his children. And, Jared….sweet Jared. When he cried over Dean’s body…the pain was palpable and I felt his own pain…deep in my soul.
Jared and Jensen have both commented many times how close they have become. That they are like brothers. And, watching scenes like the ones we witnessed in the Season 3 finale shows how connected they are. Jared’s tears were real.
Yes, I too, fell in love with Dean all over again. I have always loved him but this episode
brought me full circle. Dean was so scared of dying but he still kept the full extent of his terror hidden from Sam. Even in the end, he put Sammy first, like he has done all these years. It began when he carried baby Sammy from the burning house telling him ‘Sammy, It’s going to be okay’. And, it ended when he just looked at Sam when the clock struck midnight. Protective big brother until the end.
What else is left to say about Jensen that hasn’t already been said? I don’t think I can put into words what he did to me in this episode. That man is so good at what he does that I forget he is acting. He made me smile…laugh…scream…cry and ache. I especially loved the Bon Jovi scene in the car….the opening sequence with ‘Carry on my Wayward Son’…the quiet brotherly bonding scenes….the scene just after the clock struck midnight when they just looked at each other knowing full well that this was their last moment together on the earth.
Dean’s death scene was one of the most painful things I have ever witnessed on television but the final scene….that final scene won’t leave my head or my heart. Seeing him chained up…bloody…beaten….in pain and screaming out for Sam….hurt my heart and soul more than any scene ever.
Dean is alone. His worst fear personified. Dean is utterly and unequivocally alone!!!
Those demons know Dean all too well and that hurts me to the core.
Thank you Sylvia for everything. I am glad I having gotten to know you over the last year. We have bonded over our gorgeous Winchester boys and I look forward to squeeing with you during Season 4.
Take care
Joan
It was a good episode,better than the last two finales…
I would be kinda miffed at the pinning of Sam to a wall only Dean was pinned also,and Lilith has no power over Sam now!Sam is gonna have her for breakfast if he ever catches up with her!
Jared was awesome and amazing and every week he gets better and better and he is a pleasure to watch on screen.His fear and terror and desperation in the final hours was palpable and he made me so scared also.His tears at the end were so real i could feel it roll off the screen in waves at me and it crushed me. Jared Padalecki is a star on the rise and im loving every minute of seeing him in action.
Both guys were pretty fantastic here and i love the chemistry between them.
Further thoughts to ponder…
What is the true significance of the amulet Dean wears?
Why did Mary say “I’m sorry” to Sam in the Home episode?
What kind of power does Sam really have and what does it mean for he and for Dean?
Lillith couldn’t kill him! I am both scared and excited about what that actually means and I am sure Kripke will let us know in time.
Where is Dean? I mean..where is he really? Is it Hell?
Is it somewhere in between or is it someplace different?
When he returns to earth (and he HAS to) how will he be affected by what happened to him?
When Dean saw Sam as a demon, was it a hallucination..his own fear….or is Sam really a demon?
I don’t even want to speculate on that one?
There are so many other thoughts swirling around in my head but these are the things I come back to the most.
Joan
I do believe that Dean is in hell. I feel that Dean is in hell’s “waiting room” where eventually, he will be transferred to the bowels of hell for further “initiation”. I would feel cheated if Dean didn’t end up in hell but only in his mind. Come on, all season, and in the end this is what we get? Dean trapped in his mind? This after he was made chew toy for the hellhounds?
Dean could only be trapped in his mind, if he was still alive. With Dean dead, I vote hell or I will feel deprived.
I must say that Jensen did a remarkable job, but, that’s usual. While Jared has been a hit and miss this season, with acting choices, I found him very compelling in this final episode, though I must say that Katie’s acting seems better when pitted against Jensen then with Jared.
As for those that complain about Sam being pinned and not the hero, I will have to say that it was Sam that Lilith couldn’t destroy, Sam that got himself off the wall and caused Lilith to run. If you missed those, then maybe you are paying too much attention to Dean and not Sam, in spite of claiming being a Sam fan.
I hope season 4 starts out and ends up being more equal in telling the story about both brothers, not just SuperSam. But, I may be just wishing myself out of the show, since I doubt Kripke will have Dean anywhere near the mytharc, let alone risk Sam’s Speshulness.
Other than that, great revie.
Dear Tina,
I have no idea what Kripke and Co are up to! But both Sam and Dean are heros in my mind, whether they are pinned helpless to a wall or are making the ultimate sacrifice. It’s just as hard to stay behind as it is to go to hell, I’m thinking.
Thank you for enjoying the review! And I have a feeling that next year Sam is going to get a lot darker and, thusly, even MORE interesting than he already is. There will probably be less helpless wall pinning, come that time.
Best Regards,
Sylvia
Dear Joan,
It is, as always, my pleasure. I love the passion and joy contained in your posts, and your love for Show, as well as your love for the boys. Season 4 should have 22 full on terrific episodes; we’ll have tons of fun talking about it!
As for this ep, I agree wholeheartedly. It was hard to watch, and hard not to think about afterwards. That Show actually killed Dean, there are almost no words to describe the shock that many fans felt. Even though I personally think, to misquote Monty Python, that he’s not dead yet and will be feeling better soon, it was so difficult to watch the Dean’s death throes and not be bawling. I know I was, and you were, and everyone else I know.
The only thing that saves me from being a quivering mess is the fact that we are lucky fans to be getting a season 4. I anticipate good things, but in the meantime, yeah, we’re going to have to suffer through some serious crack withdrawl, “wondering what on earth” and “where can I get me some more?” Like you said, that moment where Sam and Dean exchange glances when the clock strikes midnight…that was PRICELESS. More like that, please.
As for Mr. Ackles, he hit it out of the park this week. But then, he always does. Just when you think he’s going to rest on his laurels, he takes it up another notch. I never grow tired of watching him bring humanity and texture to Dean’s character. I’ll be interested to see what he does with future roles, because I have a feeling we won’t be disappointed.
Best Regards,
Sylvia
Dear Mags,
Yes, it was a very good episode, and I enjoyed it terrifically well. And I love your expression, the idea of Sam having Lilith for breakfast! I agree totally – should he encounter her again, she’s toast. Burnt toast. She was mean to Sam’s Dean, and that is Not Allowed. Ever.
Mr. Padalecki is, yes, amazing. He’s got crying down to an art, I’ve not seen anything like it since Mickey Rooney. Mr. Rooney was once asked by a director to cry. Mr. Rooney replied, “How far down my face do you want the tears to go?” Now THAT’s talent.
Padalecki’s like that. You can see he’s in control of what he’s doing, but at the same time, he really feels it in a way, he reaches down inside and makes himself feel it, and then Sam’s a mess. Every time he cries, it rips me apart.
Thank you for your lovely post!
Best Regards,
Sylvia
Dear Joan,
These are the million dollar questions and I don’t know the to any of them. Plus Show is mean and wants to keep us in the dark until next season. That’s part of the fun. So is speculating. Here’s my personal take, speculations all:
The Amulet – Given to him by brother Sam one Christmas long ago. He always wears it. Rumor has it that it is supposed to protect him. Whether it can protect him from hell is one thing (which I think it can), whether it can protect him from the labrynth of his own mind is another.
Mother Mary – She says I’m sorry because she is. She never wanted this for Sam. But I’m thinking there’s also more to it than that. Maybe she meant to stick around so that she could help him understand the darkness within him, the powers that he is growing into. Maybe Mary wasn’t meant to die on the ceiling that night – maybe she knows more about demons than John ever did.
Sam’s Powers – He’s got lots of powers, he’s psychic, he can do telekinesis, and he can make other demons do his bidding. He can make Lilith back away from him. Sam thinks that Dean thinks he’s a freak for being able to do all of this. I think that’s part of why he’s been resisting his full potential.
Dean – Not in hell, not the traditional one. Hell is anywhere Sam is not. Dean thought he was dying, but Sam stopped that from happening. In spite of that, Dean’s unconscious mind is creating hell as he sees it. It is giving him just what he thought he had coming to him, the meat hooks, the lonliness, the pain, and no Sam. That’s pure hell for Dean.
When he returns – Of course he’s going to be changed! He’s going to be so messed up it’s going to make what happened to him after The Dad died (Everybody Loves a Clown) look like a cake walk. (The crack whore can’t wait!)
The Hallucination – This was standard stuff for anyone soon to be taken by the hellhounds.
Best Regards,
Sylvia
Sylvia,
In reading your reply to Joan I find it disturbing that Sam has become the Mary Sue of the show, able to do it all, while Dean is relegated to sidekick.
Take the amulet, Dean wears it because Sam gave it to him
Mary, her story only seems to affect Sam. Dean’s not even in the storyline of Mary, in your speculation, it is all about Sam and only Sam. Which makes me wonder why is Dean not involved, he being the first born and also Mary’s son.
Sam’s Powers, you have him doing everything including dancing backwards with heels on, and my question is, well, if Sam is so speshul and can do it all, why bother with the character of Dean? To hold Sam’s cape? as many have guessed? Because really, Sam won’t need anyone, and neither will the show. Sam is the ultimate superhero, in which case, let’s change the show’s name to Smallville 2.0.
Dean not in hell, well damn, the only storyline Dean’s ever had that’s been his and now that’s going to be taken away so that Sam can be more powerful and more important to the story while Dean is just an emo wreck.
I would rather Dean was in hell, because I want Dean to have more to do than be Sam’s big brother while Sam becomes the big story. I want Dean to retain his ability to see the demons and also to have intel on demons when he gets back so that he will have importance to the story and not just hang his jaw in awe as he watches SuperSam slay all the demons.
Come on, a little fairness here. Give Dean an important part in the story, and don’t let it be all about Sam, or Kripke will end up losing even more Dean fans than he’s already lost.
Dear Strangelove,
Interesting observations. I think Show isn’t showing us hell because to reveal the monster would take away a lot of the tension. And hey, I could be wrong, Dean might be in hell, or, like you say, in a waiting room or something like that.
So either Dean is dead, and is in hell, or he’s not dead and just thinks he’s in hell.
If Dean died, really died, then that means he can’t really come back next season, at least in the way that we’re familiar with. He’ll be a ghost or a phantom or something else equally nebulous and totally not fun. What I enjoy about Show is the boys driving across the country in the Impala – I would miss it if that pattern changed too much.
At any rate, there’s no telling what Show did or will do till next season starts!
I agree with what you said about Jensen but not about Jared. Both of them did excellent jobs in different ways. But I will definately watch to see if Ruby comes across better depending on who she’s up against. (I tended to pay as little attention to her as possible!)
Perspective is a funny thing. To your way of thinking, the story is all about Sam. The way I see it, the story is all about Dean! (Or at least this season!) I think both of us are right in a way – and I’m sure next season will be more of the same. Fans tend to be protective of the boy they favor. I’m always like, HEY, get that light on Dean here, I need to see his eyelashes! (It’s the little things you treasure.)
Thank you for your very interesting post.
Sylvia,
On Dean being dead, true, but the same could have been said for Sam when he died. This is supernatural after all
While I’m not a fan of deals and death/resurrection drama, I do feel that Kripke has been dinging my bell all season about Dean being in hell, and the hellhounds tearing up his body have surely guaranteed a dead Dean or I cry foul.
The fact that Sam has “powers” now, I believe will play into the bringing of Dean back, but I hope they don’t use them as the deus ex machina where Sam snaps his fingers or roll his eyes or wiggles his nose and Dean is alive and well. I’m hoping for better than that.
As for two guys on the road with the Impala, I would love the show to go back to this, but with SuperSam in the making, I believe that bridge has been burned.
Both Kripke and Singer have both mentioned, especially for season 3, that it is all about Sam, so, for me, it will be all about Sam unless things have changed, which I can only hope. I don’t feel that right now Dean is really part of the story, though I do agree that lately, badass, heroic, smart Dean has emerged and, this at least will have to satisfy me.
While the deal was about Dean, the storyline was still about Sam and his speshulness. Whatever.
I guess my main point it, yes, the deal storyline did end up being about Dean, which is why I want Kripke to see it through by having Dean in hell and getting him out, otherwise, it was just another storyline about Sam and a tool for SAM to emerge.
That being said, I don’t blame your aversion to Ruby, and would have loved to have seen this character played by a more interesting and talented actress. But, meh.
“If Dean died, really died, then that means he can’t really come back next season, at least in the way that we’re familiar with. ”
Sam really died and he came back, why not Dean? How can Dean not be dead, he was ripped to shreds? There was a gaping cavity in his chest where his heart should be. I don’t see how he could be any deader. (That was the single most disturbing thing I’ve ever seen on television, the whole death scene, incredibly, incredibly disturbing – I was just kind of in shock for about 10 minutes after – but I’ve realized it wasn’t because it was gory, it was because it was happening to Dean, heroic, self-sacrificing, annoying big brother Dean). If Dean doesn’t go to Hell than he gains nothing from this experience – nothing to bring to the war against the demons when he gets back, nothing to try and help Sam with with regards to his abilities. If Dean is in Hell he can get information that one can only get “living with the enemy”. John was in Hell for a year and while he only got back out as a spirit, he clearly was not demonic. Dean is a strong person, as shown by how he faced his approaching demise, I think he can come out of this, certainly damaged, but still true-hearted.
Dear Strangelove,
Don’t get me wrong, I can totally see what you are saying here. One of the first discussions I ever had in this fandom quickly turned into an argument because the other person kept trying to tell me that the show was all about Sam, when I felt it was all about Dean. This other person had many, many supporting things for their argument, the plot, the fact that Padalecki’s name comes first in the credits, and on and on. I never could be convinced because I think the show is about the two brothers equally. One ep might showcase Dean, another Sam. I’m a Deangirl, but I love Sam. (We eventually came to an understanding, this person and I.)
And all of my answers, they’re just my answers, my speculations, and they were all about Sam because the topics Joan picked were very Sam-related. However, someone else would have a different responses, regardless.
But didn’t Sam give the amulet to Dean? In my mind, Dean never takes it off becuase Sam gave it to him. So yeah, that invovles Sam.
As for Mary saying sorry to Sam, how can that have anything to do with Dean? I think Mary’s story includes Dean as well, but it does seem that since the demon was in the bedroom with Sam when Mary spoke to him, that Dean is not involved with this part of it. How could he be? He was fast asleep in his little bedroom, oblivious till Dad started shouting and Dean woke up.
As for Sam’s powers, we’ve only seen a smattering of those and they were not totally under Sam’s control. I don’t think he’s Superman or anything close to it. As for Dean, he’s not there to hold Sam’s cape (or his pitchfork, ha ha), he’s there to keep Sam human. To keep him from becoming the freak that Sam fears he will become if he gives in to his powers.
I personally think it’s Dean who’s wearing the wings and the halo. His soul is far purer than Sam’s, that everything he does is selfless and altruistic, where as Sam does things for more personal, less altruistic reasons. But frankly, I don’t think it’s an either or. I’ve been plenty lambasted for talking about Dean like he’s an angel, and other people have been lambasted for thinking and talking about Sam as the Boy King. I don’t think that fans should be made to choose or support one camp or the other, in fact, I don’t think there should be two camps.
As for the rest of it, you seem pretty peeved that Dean’s not getting a fair deal here. The way you describe it, Dean comes across to you as Sam’s trusty sidekick, you know, waiting for Sam to save him from hell and all that. Yeah, Sam will save him, but there’s been plenty of times that the reverse is true. And I don’t see Dean as the sidekick. The brothers are equals in all respects, and Dean is what holds Sam to the earth, keeps him solidly grounded. In Mystery Spot, it seemed to me that Sam would fall apart, destroy himself, and go totally to the darkside if it wasn’t for Dean.
And, if you ascribe to the theory that Dean actually went to hell, consider this. Dean went to hell for his brother. (Even if Dean isn’t in hell, he thinks he is, so it amounts to the same thing.) There is nothing that Sam can do that will ever be a bigger sacrifice than that. The only thing he CAN do is go and get Dean out of there. Whereever there is. Dean is the least MarySuish character I have ever seen, and I’ve not heard that Deanfans are racing to stand behind Sam.
But jeeze, your ideas are stimulating!
Best Regards,
Sylvia
Dear Emily,
Sam was brought back by a demonic deal, in original mint condition, or something like
it. If Dean is really dead here, I hardly think Sam’s going to make a deal with a
crossroad demon, do you? But really, I think Sam stopped it, stopped everything, the
second he stood up. He stopped the hellhounds, he stopped Dean from dying, and he
stopped Dean from going to hell. But that’s just one person’s opinion and might be full
of wishful thinking! But I see your point, if Sam did it, why can’t Dean, but I think
the reason is the way that he’ll be brought back. Or not. Or…heck I don’t know!
As for the death scene, yeah, I’m just glad I don’t have to watch that again any time soon. It was horrific for all the reasons you state. I’ll include gory because it was, but also, it was Dean’s heart that was being ripped asunder. Not his real heart, his metaphorical one. The hellhounds were tearing apart one of the most amazing and selfless older brothers I’ve yet encountered. The one thing that I realized, that at no point does he call for Sam’s help. (Because he knew it would kill Sam to hear it and not be able to do anything about it.) Doesn’t that just break your heart all over again?
I think fans are divided over the hell thing. I can get that if Dean doesn’t go to hell, it’s a big fat gyp, and I’m becoming convinced that yeah, I’d like to see Hell. I’d like to see Dean get out of hell, or as one fanfic postuated, Sam drive the Impala into hell and then win Dean’s soul back during a poker game with Satan. Others have said it’s a copout if Sam rescues him, because that makes Dean weak. (Yeah, he’s weak. Going to hell like that for his brother, uh-huh.) Frankly, I don’t think Dean cares how he gets out of this one, whether Sam rescues him or he crawls out himself the way his Dad did. Either way, I want Dean safe and alive! I’m sure I’m not alone on that.
Thank you for your insightful thoughts here.
Best Regards,
Sylvia
Dear Strangelove,
I hear you, I hear you, and when you point it out that way, I see it very clearly. I personally don’t think Dean is in hell, but I can see how you would think it was a cheat (after all the bell dinging) if he is not. However, I don’t think getting him out will be easy, whether it’s Sam or himself that rescues him. A two-parter at least, since we were denied that for the finale season of the ep. If we’d had a full season, I think we would have gotten a two parter, and the development of this particular conclusion/cliffhanger would have been more solidly done. (Jeeze, how much blame can one writer’s strike take!)
As for what you want Show to return to, sign me UP. Sam’s powers will be part of the story, but they won’t be the center of it, that’s my guess. Show has made noises (when I read reviews and such) that it realizes that the MOW eps work VERY well and showcase the boys at their most interesting. (Like, when are they not interesting?)
I don’t personally think the storyline was ever about Sam and his “gifts,” I always thought it was about DEAN and his annoying brother. (A brother who was almost a freak but a little brother just the same.) So with the same show, we have different perceptions. You know, a letter to Kripke would get delivered if you addressed it right….tell Show how you feel. You never know, they just might listen. Or you might be shouting into the dark.
As for Ruby, I never disliked her as much as I disliked Bella. And frankly, had they never introduced Bella, I feel they wouldn’t have spread themselves SO think and been better able to develop Ruby. She did a lot of posing and spouting off of these little speeches, and that got old, so fast. In the end, Bella, yeah, I could see how she could be interesting. I can see how Ruby could be interesting too. Maybe, without Bella, next season she will be.
Best Regards,
Sylvia
I had a blast reading your review.
Dear Amalthia,
Thank you! I hope you laughed out loud all the way through!
Best Regards,
Sylvia
Hey, Sylvia!
I have to say right off the bat that I thought of you several times over this past weekend. I tried to put myself in your shoes, and couldn’t imagine trying to write a review of this particular episode. It was just. too. much!
By the time the episode ended, my eyes were huge and round, my mouth was open, and I remained in that state until LOST was almost over (all I saw were blurry shapes on the screen, and heard indistiguishable noises coming from my TV).
I was so shocked that I simply wasn’t able to cry on Thursday. I’ve been able to re-watch twice since, and it’s become easier (and the tears fall harder), but I curse Kripke for leaving us like this until September. GAH!!
Personally, I think that Dean is in some sort of Limbo, and hasn’t fallen all the way into the depths of hell, yet. That’s my hope anyway. I have to admit that I’ve embraced Ruby lately, too. Lying, condescending demon or not, I think that, ultimately, she wants to help our heroes.
If you’re interested, the best fan-vid EVER popped up shortly after the finale: http://youtube.com/watch?v=WRP3posqo40 I hope you enjoy, and thank you for all of your wonderful recaps over Season 3. Is it September yet?
Fond regards, and enjoy your summer,
Cindi
P.S. to Joan: I think that the YED is Sam’s true father, which is why Mary apologized to him. That’s all the positing that I’ll do for today
Dear Cindi,
Firstly, I love the idea that someone is thinking of me and sympathizing with me as I stare at the blank page, wondering what to write when all I can think of are the tears streaming down Sam’s face, and Dean’s body on the floor, bloody and broken. Because, YES, it was just too much!! So thank you for that.
I think your reaction was much like mine (except for the Lost part), and I have the utmost sympathy for you. Also, there are many more out there like you and me, if that helps. Shock, disblief, indignation – a whole host of feelings surely rippled across the land, and then the questions started coming. None of which, being spoiler free, I can answer. Whether or not Dean is in hell doesn’t matter. He suffered either way and Sam is suffering too. Oh boys.
On top of which, September is TOO far away. I’ve always said Show was mean and had it in for us. Now I am proven right!
Thank you for the vid rec! I love vids and never have enough time to watch them. I think I shall treat myself soon!
Thank you also for your kind words. I shall spend my summer writing about Season 2, and I am the luckiest girl in the world!
Best Regards,
Syliva
PS. I think you are right about Mary and the YED. At the very least, though, I don’t think she would have slept with it willingly, so I think that would be a very dark story to tell.
Dean is NOT dead.
Dean is NOT in hell.
Robin is on De Nile River.
I loved your review to death!
I’m going to Chicago Con!
Love, Robin
“I don’t think she would have slept with it willingly”
Yes, I definitely agree, which would account for John’s vengeful mission, presuming that it may have started well before Mary was killed, and the difference in how he relates to his sons. I hope that it will be a good and dark story to tell, and it would explain a lot. Of course, our great and powerful evil dictator, Kripke, already knows all, so we’ll just have to wait and see. *curses some more*
Ooops, sorry for going all off-topic with the “PS” lol
I’m glad that you’ll be continuing with S2 recaps, and I’ll have good reason to look forward to my Summer Tuesdays, now.
Cheers! xo
Dear Robin,
Thank you! I want what you want, but I fear that Show will display it’s true colors and give us something else all together. I could be appeased if Dean had his shirt off when it happened because, yes, I’m that shallow.
Enjoy Chicago Con!
Best Regards,
Sylvia
Dear Cindi,
You were not off topic, not if it was about the boys, Show, or in any way related to Samhair or Deanskin. I thought your PS was totally insightful. I’ve long wanted to postulate something similar but never could get my brain around it. I don’t think that John knew before the night of Sam’s six-month anniversary. I think he would have been a different type of man, not one who falls asleep in front of the TV. I think that shortly thereafter, he must have found some information, maybe DNA tests, or a diary of Mary’s, or some other clue that would lead him to, years later, tell Dean he might have to kill his brother. That’s been in my head for a while.
What was not previously in my head and is now there forever is the idea you’ve just presented to me here. That John was extra hard on Sam because he knew, or thought he knew, that Sam was half-demon. Were this true, the whole half-demon idea, it would explain so very, very much. Like, how Sam manages to look so demonic right before he shoots the crossroads demon, or how when he’s possesed by a demon, the fit is such a very sexy one. So thank you for that!
Yeah, it should be a fun summer. Writing recaps about existing eps is a lot easier than writing reviews of new eps!
Best Regards,
Sylvia
Sylvia
Wow! This episode really made a lot of people think.
Yet another reason why I love your site, Sylvia.
Lot’s of intellectual and thought-provoking discussion, theories and insight.
I am looking forward to next Tuesday’s review. It is going to be a long summer but knowing I have a place to go to and squee about our favorite boys will make the summer fly by.
Yes, Sylvia I am very passionate about this show!
Take care
Joan
PS. And thanks for adding your thoughts about the questions I have been thinking about for a long time.
hey!
but as a true Samgirl at heart(though not a very devoted one…i often catch my self looking at Dean..and his eyelashes!), ive gotta say it makes me more upset thinking of Sam on earth without his big brother. personally i think Deans stuck in a sort of limbo…i don’t think we’ll ever actually see him in hell because it would be so hard to show hell in a way that the viewers would agree with if you know what i mean. we all have our own views of what hell would be like, i think it would be pretty hard for the show to cater to that. not that i wouldnt like to see it try! anyway…im so glad i found this sight and know im not alone in suffering supernatural withdrawal symptoms! thanks for taking the time to write the reviews sylvia! they’re great 
just found this website while looking for anything related to supernatural on google to make me feel better while we wait for season 4. I’ve just read all your reviews of season 3 episodes Sylvia, and i love them! you do such an amazing job and sum up pretty much everything all us fangirls are feeling at just the right moments. thanks so much for these great reviews! they made me laugh….and almost cry when reminicing on this ep! poor dean
chook xx